I used to be full of words, it used to be one of my favorite things about myself. I loved being able to describe things and string words together in ways that others couldn't. In ways that made people see things differently.. but somewhere along the way I lost my words. I lost one of my favorite parts of myself and sometimes I'm not sure where to go from here. I thought that coming off my pills would help me get my words back, I feel things again, things I haven't really felt in quite awhile. Honestly this scares me, the pills I was on made all of my emotions kind of flat line in a way, now that I'm off of them it's like coming out of water after sinking for so long. I feel everything and as hard as it is to say I don't exactly know how to deal with the emotions that I have been feeling. I feel myself overcompensating for emotions that I'm not used to feeling. So I think that maybe once i settle down and get a little more control over my emotions and learn about who I am now pill free my words will come back.. fingers crossed..
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