A new day, a new look on life so to say. I have finally broke down and talked to my doctor a few months ago and have been put on, what I call, crazy pills, A.K.A. depression meds. And yes I still do struggle quite a bit but I feel like I am so much better off now than before. I can tell that I am starting to look at things and situations differently. There are a few things that bother me though, one of which is the fact that people from before was on my pills still act like I'm the same person from before. It's hard to grow and move on when people are always there holding you back. The other thing is that I have a lot more good days, but when I have a bad bay it is worse than before, don't get me wrong, this is a great improvement and I would never want to go back to who I was before but sometimes it really does suck.
Another thing that really gets to me is that I have felt like total shit almost my entire life and it all could have been just a little better with these stupid pills... These pills are not only holding me together but they are also my kryptonite in a way. They are proof that I am broken. They are proof that I am crazy. But now I don't always have to feel like that, now I can focus more on the good and less on the bad because, it's a new day and a new look on life.
