Everyone has those days, those days where they just want to disappear. When those days become close together and you want to disappear more and more each time you start to believe things that are untrue, start to feel things more harshly, the world becomes your personal hell. Little problems build up and become too much. That's when you either push forward or crawl into a hole. After awhile pushing through everything you get tired. You get weak. You crawl into a hole. And what do you do then? When you have all the words inside of you that you don't know how to say. I don't know what you do..
I'm in a rut. And it's getting bad. Scary. Waking up and not liking who you see.. not even wanting to get up at all. My "not giving a fuck" attitude doesn't help. I feel like I'm pushing everyone away. I've hit the wall, I'm trying not to crawl into the hole..
