Just a night

Sometimes we don't realize why we do things as we are doing them, sometimes we have to stop and think about what we are doing and why. I was looking at the other half of my bed today where my sister sleeps when she is over and noticed that when she leaves I can't sleep if there is nothing over there, so I fill my bed with blankets and pillows.

I panic a lot. I had this awful feeling that when I broke up with my boyfriend that I had made a mistake that I would end up alone and unloved. I have a problem where I can't step back from certain things and rationalize anything. It's a huge fault of mine. And I hate that part of me.

I talked to my brother and to my ex.. I realized that I made the right decision and I will find someone someday. I just need to focus on me and let the rest fall into place. I will admit that I'm scared, quite often, but I think that's okay to be scared sometimes. As long as it doesn't drag you down.

And now I think the best thing to do is stay positive and keep going.

My tattoo means so much to me because ever since I was younger my dad told me that when things get rough that all you have to do is keep moving forward. It may seem like just 3 simple words but they mean so much to me.

Well that is what is on my mind this fine evening.. Goodnight.