Everyone experiences things differently, for me college has not started off so swell.
When you think about college at first you think about being out on your own, partying, staying up late, and drinking, but for some people college doesn't even come close to this image. Personally to me college has been my way to a better life. I belong to a family that is at the bottom of middle class and have always dreamed of a way up. But this dream is not always as easy as it seems. I am in my third year of college, at my third college and I have enough credits to be considered a freshmen in college.. a lot of people may have given up by now but I can't. If I were to give up I will have let myself down and I really just wouldn't know where to go with my life.
I have never though of myself as a smart person but honestly college has beaten me down to where I just need to get through to prove that I am worth anything. I have a constant feeling of being behind whenever I see anyone from my grade, they are all so far into their lives I feel like I have fallen through the cracks. But I never let that out, I just plaster a smile on my face and act like nothing is wrong. I am to blame in many ways when it comes to my college disaster, but I have never stopped trying. I think that is why it hurts so much when I fail, because I really tried.
I start college in a few weeks, a new college, a new semester, a new major, and all I can do is try. I guess we will have to wait and see how the story ends..
